yeah im just sick of the last journal. lifes wierd, when u think it is going ur way and everything is perfect. something happends and u would trade everything u thought made it soo perfect, for this new thing that u dont even know u'll get. but u will give up everything ne ways just for the chance. the chance is so importaint its like the one bet u cant give up. like going all in with a pair of kings and aces, but there being a flush draw on the table. IM ALL IN!